Falling in love (with life)

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Moment in time

16 03 2014

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How shall I begin to capture the moments of my last six months ? I’m not sure how many times I’ve wanted to write about them, but I manage some words and have to start all over again at a different time. They say Nikolai Astrup, a painter from my birth place, left many pictures unfinished, and I see the same tendency myself. I have about 40 drafts on my blog and even when I publish something new, I’m haunted by the stories I wanted to share and write.

This weekend has been about traveling, both physically from one place to another and metaphorically from one memory and thought to another. I have loved sitting with my head against the bus-window with an audiobook on my ear, while I watch the Norwegian mountain in all their mighty colors. My mood has been very present the last week, and I owe that to several things: I am moving from one apartment to another, and changes always whirl up emotional dust. Another reason for ample emotional occurrences, is the endings and beginnings in relationships.

I’ve worked for over three years now and an right now in a phase where many of my clients have gotten better. Some therapies has come to an end, and like Andrew Solomon wrote about himself: Sometimes I am so afraid of loosing the present that I find it hard to move on. To follow people, either professionally or personally, a long time also means accepting that it must end. To say goodbye to individual stories, is emotional, even when you know it’s right.

I started my blog two years ago, when my ex left me. Still I feel knots inside when I remember what we had and what I could have done different. This week I saw him again for the first time in over 6 months. He was one of the main singers in a musical, with the title ‘c.r.a.z.y in love’. One of my best friends sat next to me, and put her hand upon mine as my tears streamed when he opened the show by sining ‘to really love a woman’. I hoped it would be un eventful, but I knew I had to go through it. I felt better after some songs, but found myself in a emotional turmoil the day after it ended. I was prepared for some reaction, and have let it come, practicing mindfulness and calm breathing. I have went through regret, memories and loneliness all over again, and the need to get answers has once more haunted my thoughts.

It’s started to get late. I am in my bad as I write and think about the last months. I can honestly say that I’m proud of myself: I’ve stood in difficult feelings and held my head up high. I’ve told myself I should be happy that I can love so deeply that
My cuts still hurt two years after the injury. I’d rather love with all off me than hide beneath the covers and feel nothing.

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Sound of goodbye: Last scene

11 03 2014

The last scene

If you ask people: What do you regret most? The things you did or the things you didn`t do, they answer, with longing, the things they  didn`t do. When looking back, the things you didn`t say or do, linger on. The silence can speaks so loud and haunt you in the quiet night. Luckily, many have tought me this valuable lesson, and today I can`t thank them enough. When the bridge bridge collapsed under my feet, they stood there as I rebuilt it, stone by stone. I didn`t always realize it since fog hid their beautiful faces, but I always recognized them in the end. They saved me enough to see and take an outstretched hand when I needed it.

Some didn`t have pillars of safety to stand on when they built their lives. So what about them? What about those who couldn`t let their tears flow when they wanted? How can I ever compare my experiences to that? The lack of scaffolding must feel like swimming without seeing land. “True”, you might say, but this can bring out incredible strength in people. “True”, I`d answer with a sad voice. “But it still drains their energy for such a long time”. “And what about those who lose their lives in the effort? How many had to let go right before they reached the shore?

I have no answers, but I do have my ability to ask since they didn`t take that away from me. My gift is to give back what I got to show my appreciation and gratitude. I`ll promise to give as much as I got with the warmth of this truth energizing me forever.

Who knows? One day one of them might feel as touched as me when I stretch out my hand and they take it. What if they one day get the chance to think like I do? In an integrative blender my thoughts and feelings have intermingled until this simple truth came out: If this isn`t nice, then I don`t know what is.

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kind in heart

24 02 2014

We all need The sound of voices through the silence

The events in Ukraine has triggered to many of us. We start to think about evil and injustice. If you think too much about that, it`s easy to feel helpless and scared. Completely natural and reasonable, but if we only focus on the bad things, we feel powerless. A dear friend of me lost a friend in Ukraine, and my heart reaches out to her and all the people who lost their lives because they dared to break the silence that many of us worship. Luckily, I know the power of breaking the silence. Like a freeing laugh in a tense situation, speaking up releases a cascade of reactions sorely needed. Put you`r imagination on fire and mentally hug your ability to change things. Who knows, you might be the person who started the chain reaction, leading to a better world for us all.

For people in need of more inspiration to battle helplessness, these pictures and this site might give you the necessary encouragement.

The sound of the second violin | Mirrorgirl

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The Project

 

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Unsaid words:

  1. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence | MAGGIE’S BLOG
  2. Milgram, Behavioural Study of Obedience
  3. Heightened Senses | Reality to Randomness
  4. Screaming in Silence | Reaching for the Stars
  5. Silence | Grilled Cheese (& Other Things That Make My World Go ‘Round)
  6. Tears over Gravlax | Not the Family Business!
  7. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence « Mama Bear Musings
  8. The sound of silence | sixmonthsinaweek
  9. The sound of silence: | D Lonely Stoner
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  13. Mute | MightWar
  14. Letters from the Silence – 20th February, 2014 | Wired With Words
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  16. The Last Minority | Deliberating Dave
  17. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence | medicinalmeadows
  18. In Retrospect, a Response to a Poem I Wrote as a Teen | The Positivity Project
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  20. This is Silence | abundance in the boondocks
  21. ” “ | tabularin0a
  22. The Cruel Silence. | Abstractions of Life
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  26. Thought Connections | “Aspernauts” and other musings…
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  28. It’s Noisy Being Human | noontimethoughts
  29. meeting place | yi-ching lin photography
  30. » Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence | Chiquitita
  31. Void | The Salt
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  34. Silencing – Rose Glace’s Blog
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  36. A Cacophony of Silence | A Wild One Within
  37. Unsaid | Silver.Boox
  38. my tug-of-war with SILENCE | YES i WONDER…
  39. Breaking His Silence | Focal Breeze
  40. The Countdown | Omnithings
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  42. Thoughts on Sarajevo | roastbeefandrakija
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  45. Gray silence | Stories from aside
  46. School Vacation Routine for Parents | A Fit and Focused Future
  47. DP Weekly Writing Challenge: Silence | Phylor’s Blog
  48. On the art of better living | soulfoood
  49. DP challenge: silence | shape shifting
  50. Orion 83 – Part 5 – The Silence | L5GN
  51. the (not always so) sweet sound of silence | serene interior designs
  52. Silence | The Wonder of Yarrow House
  53. I DROVE IN SILENCE | I’m How Old?!
  54. Mute | Of love, life and such magic
  55. The Wait Of Silence | Wise Blood
  56. Searching for Silence | Dance With Madness
  57. Man-Made | martha0stout
  58. Scenes From the Lobby | pryorities
  59. Adjustment Periods Are THE WORST… | Grilled Cheese (& Other Things That Make My World Go ‘Round)
  60. The Sound of Silence on the Set on Mt. Tamalpais (Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence) | The San Francisco Scene–Seen!
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  62. Dawn’s Silence #poetry #photography | Moondustwriter’s Blog
  63. The Silent Treatment | fingerprintwriting
  64. Silence of my home | The Word Trance
  65. Is it Really Golden? | Testing the Strength I Have
  66. Hue Of Silence | Views Splash!
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  68. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence | Moonlight Reflections
  69. Of Gods and Men | Alyeska-Arts
  70. Tune of Silence | dandelionsinwind
  71. Silence is Deafening | mary’s blog
  72. The Sound Of Silence | remindyourmind
  73. The Sound of Silence | Alexia Jones
  74. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence, 23.02.14 | Markie’s Daily Blog
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  77. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence | jinyasa
  78. What You Can Hear in the Silence | krstokely
  79. The Sound of Silence: Can You Imagine It? | Just Be V
  80. The sound of breaking the silence | Free advice from a clinical psychologist
  81. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence | Heauxdolly
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  83. The Sound of Silence | The Joy of Health Nutrition and Beauty
  84. A Silent Hunt. | The Shady Tree
  85. Silence Speaks Louder Than Words | Creative Mysteries
  86. Silence of the Cat | The Adventures of Cat Madigan
  87. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence #writing | Of Glass & Paper
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  90. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence – Breaking the Barrier | humanTriumphant
  91. The Painting On The Wall | Midnight Butterfly
  92. Weekly Writing Challenge: Silent Screams | NOWHERE TO RUN
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  94. The Sound of Silence | 101 Challenges in 1001 Days
  95. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence | To Breathe is to Write
  96. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence | Chronicles of an Anglo Swiss
  97. Hush me again, I can’t stand it. | May van Reenen
  98. it’s haircut day | Musings of a Random Mind
  99. My Quest for the Sound of Silence | Schizo Incognito
  100. No Curse | scottishmomus
  101. Weekly Writing Challenge: The Sound of Silence | The Wandering Poet




The sound of reaching the shore

21 02 2014

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I lie in my bed after a shower. I’ve tried to wash away the day and give
my feverish body energy to fight nasty bacterias who fight their (hopefully) dying battles. Birdy’s wings plays in the background, setting the mood. In two weeks my life will take a different turn. I will not live in the same apartment I’ve stayed in for three years, but move back to my father and then into the apartment me and my boyfriend have bought together. Changes, always changes. Sometimes so many that I’ll have to sit down and think about it all: The last year has been like living inside a bubble of crazy incidents. I’ve been like a manic cat trying to catch birds that fly in all directions. I have enjoyed the roller coaster, and will continue to do so. But sometimes I need rest, like everyone else. That’s when I type these words or let my eyes settle on solid pages that never change. Writing, reading and thinking have been my closest friends for many years, and they will be for many more. I love them as much as I love my exuberant new friends: They always smile, have thousands of dreams and ideas that they manage to follow through. My golden luck ill wear with pride around my neck. I’ll never forget the Chances I’ll been given, and try to give back as much of it as I can.

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The sound of angel wings

14 02 2014

I know heaven must be beautiful right now
Cause they got you, babe

To my friend Niko, who was brought back to heaven October 2013.

I also dedicate this to her true love, continuing the war against stigma on her behalf. Read more about them here

compassionDonate and help her fulfill her wish (to the Kindness project) on : Mirrorgirl: My life as a psychologist. The most of the money will be given to guest writers and to promote the kindness project.

 





Random acts of kindness week

5 02 2014

compassionThe following week is the “Random acts of Kindness” week. I love the idea, and hope this initiative will continue the following years. By doing small things for others, I believe the world can get better. Naivè? Maybe. But it won`t hurt to try

    1. The following week is the “Random acts of Kindness” week. I love the idea, and hope this initiative will continue the following years. By doing small things for others, I believe the world can get better. Naivè? Maybe. But it won`t hurt to try

Examples like these are more and more common. For every smile, there is one second of happiness. But what could happen if every one of us did one kind thing. Every week? 

mirrorgirl








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